I don't know why. I just feel so pissed.
ARGGGGGGGH!
I wanna be my old self.
At least, I had real fun. Why do I have to change myself now? I mean, I'm still young. I just wanna enjoy life to the fullest. I don't wanna change the way I live my own life. I don't wanna be what I am now. I gotta be kidding myself. I changed, because my parents want me to. So in other words, they are like forcing me to be somebody that I don't wanna be. What the heck? I just suck. ALOT. God give everyone a chance to repent. I will repent of course, when the time is right. Okay call me an ungrateful person or whatever. You will understand if you were in my situation. I'm leading a miserable life. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still breathing when all I did was to break my parents' heart. I'm the black sheep of the family. Thats what my mom said anyway.........

Well, I just kinda got back home. Break fast with Nawal. We had a great time eventhough we somehow got lost. We went to 6 places in almost 7 hours. Haha. I'm having bubble-like blisters & it hurts alot. Have to get up early tomorrow morning. Exams start on Monday. I guess I'm gonna screw up my SS paper. Its impossible to study 6 essays in a day. I gotta go off and get some sleep now. I'm totally worn out.

toodles.



Theres so much I want in life. Including having you by my side.