Truth hurts. Sure it really does. It hurts a lot more than what I expected.
I would have cried myself to sleep tonight.
But I don't see the point of doing that. Its worthless.
Its not gonna change anything & make everything turn out right anymore. Its over.
I made him do it. And he did it.
Its the greatest feeling I've ever had in my entire life.
Damn it. Of course I'm kidding.
I feel like as if theres thousands of knives jabbing in my heart. Okay thats exaggerating.
The feeling is totally undescribable. He's not coming back. He's not coming back.
I feel like crap. And he said those three words that I've been yearning to hear it from him.
At last. But its a little too late. And I don't think he meant it.
If he really did, he wouldn't have done what I asked him to. And he wouldn't even have the balls to hurt my feelings.
But it doesnt matter anymore.
Why would it be? I wanted him to tell me straight that he didnt need me anymore.
I was hoping he would reply that he needed me more than anything else.
*Laughing my booty off*
Who am I kidding? Myself? Haha.
& well, he did what I asked him to do. I can't really remember exactly what. Cause I already deleted the message. Can't stand reading it again.
It goes something like, "I don't need you, Nadiah. Not now, never."
Ahh. Nicely phrased, don't ya think?
But nevermind. I don't need any sympathy. Im used to being hurt, I guess.
Thats why I said I suck a lot in relationship & yeah, none of my relationships ever worked out, in case you guys are wondering.
So well, I guess this is the last guy that I ever wanna associate with.
Err.. For the time being. I'm so done with all this shits.
Hear me? Tell me that I'm a total jerk, full of craps if I were to ever have any relationships again. Alright? Deal.

Time check. Its already 2:10 AM. & I feel so fucked up. Trynna swallow this reality that he doesn't need me anymore. Ouch. Did I tell you that it hurts so much? Yes, indeed. It really worked on me now.
I'm not gonna crawl back to him ever again. Even though, I'm missing him like fuck like totally crazy.